Wrapping up 2019

In 2019, I’ve had eleven individual releases and my stories have been featured in three anthologies.

Think about that for a minute.

Yes, one book is a re-release, so “only” ten new stories. Two are under 10K words. The longest book is only 34032 words and a collab with Kris T. Bethke so I only wrote about half of those words because she wrote the rest. But it’s still a lot. It’s still 185 685 words in one year.

I wrote and published my first fantasy and paranormal stories in 2019. And my first M/M/M story. I wrote about 40+ characters, about age gap, about a fluffy bunny shifter, about a party boy who wanted more in life. I wrote about a homophobic family and an awesome ex-wife. I wrote about star-crossed lovers and about the fear that can grip you when you’re at risk of losing the love of your life.

All that…and I still found the time to move across the world.

I mean. Look at this:

Nells 2019

So maybe I don’t need to feel bad for not writing much the last three months of the year (because of the move from Malaysia back to Sweden)? And maybe, we can all agree that this many releases in one year is a bit…excessive?

That being said. OH MAH GAWD, I released eleven books this year. How awesome am I?

Have you read them all? Which one was your favorite?

Thank you, all, for this year, I could never do this without you. I hope you will stay with me for the next year, maybe even for the next, new decade.

Happy New Year to you all. Don’t commit to resolutions you’ll break before February, and if you celebrate the coming of 2020 with a glass of champagne, think of me 😉

Buy links:

Awakening & French Songs | Snowed In: Nen and Anani | All I See | Diving In | His Steady Heart | 9 Willow Street | Team Luker | Of Autumn Leaves and New Beginnings | In My Arms Again | Red Popcorn Strings and Gumball Rings | Four Christmases

Legendary Loves vol 2 | Most Wonderful Time of the Year | 2019 Top Ten Gay Romance

Release Day and Memorial Day Sale

It’s Memorial Day sale over at my publisher’s. 45% off all e-books, including new releases, so hurry on over to JMS Books, and buy my brand spanking new book!! 🙂

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Ashley Buchanan—Buck—moved back home to take care of his sick mother when he was 22. That was the first time he met Pippin, the neglected 6-year-old boy next door. Fifteen years later, Buck—a caretaker by nature—offers up his couch for Pippin, who needs a break from his mom and a quiet place to sleep.

Pippin Olander is a ray of sunshine despite his emotionally lacking upbringing and works hard to make a better life for himself. Even though he’s fiercely self-sufficient, he learns to accept help from Buck, his rock and only steady presence in his life.

Their friendship deepens and grows into something more as they spend more time together. But when other people try to throw a wrench in the works, when Pippin’s independence is triggered, can Buck and Pippin trust in the love they’ve found?

25605 words / M/M contemporary / May/December

Buy link: JMS Books

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Of course, if you want to buy it elsewhere, it’s also available here:

Amazon | Amazon UK | Kobo | iTunes | B&N | Google Play

His Steady Heart: one week until release and more pre-order links

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Ashley Buchanan—Buck—moved back home to take care of his sick mother when he was 22. That was the first time he met Pippin, the neglected 6-year-old boy next door. Fifteen years later, Buck—a caretaker by nature—offers up his couch for Pippin, who needs a break from his mom and a quiet place to sleep.

Pippin Olander is a ray of sunshine despite his emotionally lacking upbringing and works hard to make a better life for himself. Even though he’s fiercely self-sufficient, he learns to accept help from Buck, his rock and only steady presence in his life.

Their friendship deepens and grows into something more as they spend more time together. But when other people try to throw a wrench in the works, when Pippin’s independence is triggered, can Buck and Pippin trust in the love they’ve found?

25605 words / M/M contemporary / May/December

RELEASE DATE: MAY 25, 2019

Pre-order now:

JMS Books (20% off until May 31) | Amazon | Amazon UK  | Kobo  | iTunes  | B&N  | Google Play

His Steady Heart – pre-order and excerpt

It’s three weeks until the release of His Steady Heart, and it’s now available for pre-order. I thought you might like a link so you can go and clickety-click it? And also an excerpt, because you are all so great? 🙂


hissteadyheartAshley Buchanan—Buck—moved back home to take care of his sick mother when he was 22. That was the first time he met Pippin, the neglected 6-year-old boy next door. Fifteen years later, Buck—a caretaker by nature—offers up his couch for Pippin, who needs a break from his mom and a quiet place to sleep.

Pippin Olander is a ray of sunshine despite his emotionally lacking upbringing and works hard to make a better life for himself. Even though he’s fiercely self-sufficient, he learns to accept help from Buck, his rock and only steady presence in his life.

Their friendship deepens and grows into something more as they spend more time together. But when other people try to throw a wrench in the works, when Pippin’s independence is triggered, can Buck and Pippin trust in the love they’ve found?

RELEASE DATE: MAY 25, 2019

Pre-order now:

JMS Books (20% off until May 31)


Excerpt:

I love having Pippin in my house. We don’t see each other all that often considering I work third shift and he has two day-time jobs, but his presence in the house is obvious. There’s an extra toothbrush in the bathroom. And a disposable razor, a deodorant, and some kind of cream he puts on his face. I cleared out a shelf in the closet for him where he keeps a few items of clothing. My modest book collection has mysteriously grown: I’ve noticed the addition of that vampire book he was reading, and a couple other paperbacks I haven’t put there.

Then there’s the mornings. He’s always awake when I get off work and two steaming mugs of hot chocolate wait for us both on the breakfast bar when I walk through the door after my shift. Some days we enjoy each other’s company in silence, sometimes we chat.

We talk about everything and nothing. He tells me about the book he’s reading or something funny that happened at the coffee shop. I tell him about my trials and tribulations at work and my niece’s huge eyes and ecstatic smile when I brought her the picture books.

One morning I ask him about college.

“I don’t really know what I want to do with my life,” he says. “I just want to do something. I don’t want to end up like …” He stops himself and clears his throat. “I don’t want to wake up one day when I’m fifty and be bitter because I didn’t try.”

“I understand.”

“I know.”

Warmth and satisfaction unfurl in my stomach at his words of absolute trust. “No clue to what you wanna do?”

“Well …” He squirms on his stool and his gaze dances away.

“You don’t hafta tell me.”

“I’ve, uh …” He taps his lower lip with his finger and my gaze zeroes in on it. “I’ve always been interested in law. But I don’t want to be a lawyer. I could never defend a guilty person. Never!” The last word is said with vehemence and a wrinkled nose.

“Oh, darlin’, I know.” The endearment just slips out and I’m about to apologize. But his face breaks out in a wide, happy smile and two pink spots appear on his cheeks, making him look so adorable, it’s impossible for me to take it back.

“I like reading and researching so I thought …” He sighs. “Promise not to laugh.”

“Why would I laugh?”

“Uh. Mom does. ‘No Olander has ever gone to college,’ she says and laughs.”

Fury flashes in my chest and I clench my teeth. Just when I thought she couldn’t do anything worse to rile me up! What kind of mother laughs at her child’s dreams and ambitions? What kind of person, full stop?

My anger must have been written in neon Sharpie all over my face, because he hurries to explain. “It’s not her intention to be mean. But ambition is foreign to Olanders. Maybe I take after my dad.” He shrugs.

His defense of her snuffs out my anger more effectively than a fire extinguisher would have killed a raging fire.

Don’t forget about his loyalty, Buck, I berate myself silently.

I draw fresh oxygen into my lungs. “Maybe. Or maybe you’re your own person.

His eyes light up. “I like that idea! You really think so?”

I nod and smile. “What’s so ambitious the Olanders would faint if they knew?”

“I found this online paralegal program. It’s just an associate degree, but it would mean I don’t have to save up forever. I can even start classes right away if I want to. And it sounds really interesting.”

An associate degree? His mom got her knickers in a twist over a two-year college degree? I resist the urge to growl. “I like it. You’d be great at it. Lord knows you have your nose buried in a book often enough,” I say instead.

Those little words of encouragement make him grow ten feet. He stands, walks around the breakfast bar to my side, and winds his arms around my waist from behind. His body is flush with mine, his cheek pressed against the back of my head.

“Thank you, Ashley,” he whispers. “No one has ever supported me like you do.”

I grunt and blink, my eyes suddenly itchy. I will always support you. Always, I vow in my head, unable to say the words out loud.

Writing update

Hi everyone! Time for another update on what I’m doing with my life.

First of all, I finished and submitted my bunny shifter story, 9 Willow Street. I signed a contract, and it will be released sometime in July. I’ll give you more details as soon as I have them. But we can start with the blurb:

Heartbroken after the death of his beloved Nana, Hannes, the family outsider, finally allows himself to grieve. The legal battle over Nana’s quirky old house— the only place he’s ever felt accepted and loved—is over, and he moves in and finds a sense of peace.

…and a rabbit.

An adorable bunny with a huge personality moves in, too, and refuses to leave. Hannes instantly falls in love with the sweet animal who helps heal his heart. But one morning, Hannes’ view of the world changes when the rabbit transforms into a man. A man named Mattis.

After the initial shock, Hannes and Mattis discover a connection between them that runs deeper than it seems. Will their newfound feelings survive unraveling secrets and meddling families, and grow into something real? Something deep and everlasting?


My current WIP is an unnamed story for a JMS Books submission call, Autumn Love, where the main characters have to be 40 or older. My MCs are Oren Walker, a 47-year old workaholic without a family (except for his elderly mother) and Pete Higgins, a 48-year-old divorced bisexual guy with two college-aged kids. Pete is Oren’s mother’s neighbor and the story starts with Oren coming to say thank you to Pete after Oren’s mother fell and broke her femur, and Pete helped her.

I’m currently at about 6000 words and the deadline is May 31.


And then I have a treat for you:

I have the cover for my May 25 release, His Steady Heart. Wanna see? No pre-order yet, but I’ll post links as soon as I have them.

Isn’t it gorgeous?? 😍😍

hissteadyheart

Ashley Buchanan—Buck—moved back home to take care of his sick mother when he was 22. That was the first time he met Pippin, the neglected 6-year-old boy next door. Fifteen years later, Buck—a caretaker by nature—offers up his couch for Pippin, who needs a break from his mom and a quiet place to sleep.

Pippin Olander is a ray of sunshine despite his emotionally lacking upbringing and works hard to make a better life for himself. Even though he’s fiercely self-sufficient, he learns to accept help from Buck, his rock and only steady presence in his life.

Their friendship deepens and grows into something more as they spend more time together. But when other people try to throw a wrench in the works, when Pippin’s independence is triggered, can Buck and Pippin trust in the love they’ve found?

WIP teaser

Now that the second book in the collab project I write with Kris T. Bethke is submitted to our publisher, I’ve gone back to writing Buck and Pippin again. If you’re new to my blog and wonder who the heck are Buck and Pippin? click here to get some backstory.

Since I wrote about them four weeks ago, their story now has a title (His Steady Heart), I have a deadline (March 31), and the book has a tentative publishing date (sometime in May).

This snippet is still from chapter 1 of the WIP, but not directly following the first teaser.

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“You should get some sleep. I’ll go.”

“No.” I straighten and rub my eyes again. Then I make a quick decision, pull out a drawer where I keep the extra key for the house, grab it, and put it on the bar in front of him. “Stay until you need to go work.”

I’ve meant to give it to him for a long time but getting him to accept stuff is a struggle, even little things. His pride’s got pride, so just getting to a point where he accepts a hot drink without me having to twist his arm has been an uphill battle.

His fingers twitch as though he wants to reach out and take it, but he just keeps looking at it. I put my index finger on the key and nudge it closer to him.

“I…” He lays a fingertip on the metal and frown.

“Pippin.” I soften my voice. “I worry when you’re sittin’ out there freezin’ your butt off, strainin’ your eyes tryin’ to read in the dark.”

“I’m all right,” he whispers.

“I know you are.” He’s more than all right. I don’t understand how he grew up to be such a great person considering his childhood. “Do it for me?”

“Why?” He looks up at me with wrinkled eyebrows.

Because someone needs to look out for you when your ma is too busy screwing her latest sugar daddy to be able to afford to warm up the house this winter. Because you’re so darned strong, working two crappy jobs and saving up what little you can spare for college. Because you’re too good for this shitty situation life dealt you.